peace~

没事了ok？

有谁看得到，打出血的拳头。

谢谢，你的爱。

你是我生命中最重要的人，你已是我生命的一部份。对你，我承认了我的所有缺陷。在你的面前，我能丢脸，我能哭泣，我能做我自己。你不只接受了我，你还让我接受了自己。爱你，我很轻松，因为你相信我爱人的方式。你不企图改变我，或希望我被你改造。你只会用傻傻的真心，来打动我。我们能给于彼此私人空间，你也非常尊重我的任何意见和看法。我想，你给我最珍贵的东西，就是信任跟包容。因为你的信任，所以我相信自己。因为你的包容，我能够做我自己。

幸福，不再是我想追逐的东西，也不再是我渴望的东西。幸福成了我想给你的东西。我爱你，不只是因为你能让我开心，而也是因为你能让我伤心。不只是因为你喜欢我，而也是因为你讨厌我。我们就是能分享一切点滴，好与不好。爱，就是这样，在不完美中，越显得完美。和你在一起，让我感到很真实。未来有了琢磨得到的影子，幸福有了触摸得到的样子。

谢谢，你的爱。

给，最心爱的你。。

有了一些技巧，就能慢慢的打开话题。
有了让你相信的人，就能慢慢的让人了解你。
我把所有的和你有过开心的不开心的，明白的不明白的日子，用你给我最深沉的那段内心伤历，拼凑了成了想对你的更真挚的爱。有我的你，有你的我，彼此再也完美不过，因为你是我的缺陷，因为我也是你的缺陷，你给我的幸福也是我要给你的幸福。残缺的过去我们用未来的一点一滴来弥补，一定会找回原来的自己！你是就是我的荣耀。

you is my life

you is my life.

help!

可怜的ginger man。5花大绑般。
我老婆。世界上最美的女孩。

我，不能给你心服口福，但可以带你去口福foodcourt。

长话短说。

我想不要太爱一个人。这样就不会有要求。

小风，你知不知道，那天在木船，当你唱那首防空洞的时候，小翔我其实哭了。我单眼滑下了一行泪。我没让周围的人发现。听着你的歌声，看着你的身体和精神跟着我们一起的努力好了起来，我真的很感动。我感动着小风的勇气，小风的那股奋斗精神。终于，我们的努力没有白费。我们到了将近两年的时间，还是紧紧的贴着彼此不离不弃。当我听见这一段“你有的不多却愿意把最好的都留给我。” 我的泪水涌现了。请你不要误会，我不是在自豪，而是，我真的可以对这句歌词relate。我突然间发现，自己真的真的都有的不多，可是我有做到，把最好的都留给你。我发现我没有违背我们在结婚的时候所许下的誓言。我对你的爱，是真的爱。看见你好起来，看见你开心，看见你健康，看见你微笑，我真的又开心，又感动，又自满。我这一辈子再也没有第二件那么骄傲的事，就是有好好的对待我爱的人，好好的疼爱你。以前我不会爱，现在，我终于敢说，我学会爱一个人了。还记得小风那时住院，我真的很惭愧，很伤心，觉得很对不起你，我也忍痛着，一切将要归零，对你的爱护，让你的信任，培养你的信心和勇气，将要从新开始。可是我没有放弃，我没有不要爱你。我知道你还是很需要我，我知道我绝对不会离开你的。这几天，你一直都对小翔说，说你很幸福，说你很爱小翔，我觉得我的一切牺牲都值得了。。只要有你在我的身边，只要有你的肯定和相信，我不在乎牺牲我的一切。那天在bugis, 我真的还耿耿于怀，不是因为无法帮那女子讨回公道，也不在那男子吐在我脸上的口水。那些真的不算什么。反而在我脑海里反复回响的，是如果有一天你碰到危险，我是否有能力保护得到你。我发现我跟本都不够强。我还是会权力的保护你，不过害怕着你会因为我不强，而还是从中受到伤害，受伤。你是我最想保护得到的人，因为你包含着我所有的梦想，我们未来的美好希望，只有你才配得上和我一起建立。我一定要变得更好，更强，才能守护着你。这些都是我这几天有的种种感受，想让你知道我的心。。

今天觉得很幸福。今年是二十九岁的生日，收到了很多简讯祝福。。
有时候会因为工作生活的方式而渐渐的和朋友失去了联络，可是会有某些日子不会忘记的，觉得幸福是因为在这一天，我被记得了。谢谢我那班可爱的女生要好朋友，围绕在她们身边，特别让我觉得有自信，我就像小小的组长一样身负重任但也是小主角一样被关心和鼓励。也很感谢小强部队们所带给我的温暖和欢笑，这些记忆真的丰富了枯闷的生活。有时想起的时候会慧心一笑。

活到今天其实也没什么好怨言了。 有了平淡的感触，看过一本书，作者有这样说过“慢慢的变老也是一种幸福”， 尝试用这一句话去面对年龄，我觉得好过多了，因为我曾为了害怕长大的心情而挣扎了很久。。因为害怕失去童真，害怕失去单纯，害怕失去无忧无虑的生活，害怕失去纯洁的想法，害怕自己的世界充满了现实和丑陋的事实。。日本人之所以会那么疯狂于可爱的东西，那是因为他们生活很现实，所以可爱的东西可以让他们暂时远离现实从返童真。所以我希望当我带着bear bear 去旅行，身上挂着bear bear的那些举动，那是可以被谅解的，虽然真的很欠扁的想。可以选择自己的方式生活，同时有爱的人在身边，很幸福。有感以前的愿望都慢慢的随着年龄满满的实现了。


今年的生日愿望是想赶快拿到公民，然后可以有自己的栖身之所。

Japan, Tokyo Honeymoon 31st Mar - 6th Apr 2008

baby was lucky to be able to travel with us to Tokyo!

First, I shall start off this post with a big "FINALLY!!!" After months of waiting, and years of waiting for my dear juju, our long waited honeymoon vacation is upon us! It had always been juju's wish to be able to set foot onto Japanese land! And here we are now, at Changi Airport Terminal 3. Our flight was at 2340H, we were early for some dinner. As you can see, we bought our baby son around! Yes! its kinda funny, but bluey baby Stitch here is our adopted son, heh.

juju diggin in

We proceeded for dinner at this Dian Xiao Er(店小二) chinese restaurant, and I swear to myself, I will never set foot into their doors again. First, their food didn't taste good, its edible, but its not good enough to be of restaurant standards. Second, everything is expensive! Imagine we ordered only Tofu, Vegetables, Prawns, and a single portion bowl of winter melon soup, anyway all the dishes ordered were small sizes. And the whole dinner cost us a whopping 60 over dollars ok! I have to deny their plate of peanuts just to waive $2.50 off the bill. Cut throat! Rip off! Boo!

our passports

Ok this is our pass ports la. By the way do not not bring your pirated LV( at least do not show it to them) across the Japan customs, I think its illegal in their country. I mean, its illegal everywhere but I seldom come across a country having posters in their airports telling people its an offence to carry imitation products. Better be safe yea?

dear, this few men are the pilots right?

Here we are! after a long flight, but I should say its a rather comfortable one considering its SQ. Its not that their seats are of any difference with budget airlines, but they've got an entertainment console. However, SIA's customer service in the economy cabin is quite sub standard, not the type I would expect. I am expecting same service standards in all cabins, as service should not be something to be differentiated by what class you are travelling in what. Upon arrival we are to walk a very very long route leading to the customs, and we were informed before hand that it was 6 degree celsius and raining outside. Things were getting exciting for us.

purchasing the keisei skyliner tickets

At last, the long queues at the customs are over, we had collected our luggages and are now purchasing railway express tickets to our hotel location in Tokyo central, Ueno(上野). It costs 1000Yen per person, which adds up to SGD 14.00. It was rather confusing at first as the airport was very very big, lucky for us, juju could read some simple japanese and most of the counter staff can speak simple english.

the 0849H skyliner bound for Ueno

We arrived in Narita at around 0730H. The screen is showing the timings of the available Keisei Line express trains. We bought tickets bound for the 0849H ride. So it took more than an hour just to clear the customs. Headache..

2 tiny tickets. you insert them alike farecards

Here juju is holding 2 train ride tickets! The air around us feels chilly but not cold yet. We proceed to tug our luggages along to the train platform.

their gantry are quite wide

This is very much like our Singaporean MRT gantry, only that the gate opens outwards. Unlike the Singapore version, they poke you in the ribs if you do not cross fast enough. In Japan at most the thing slaps on your hips. Kids get a broken nose though.

Our luggages. The one on the left belongs to juju.

finally we get to sit down!

Here am I, taking a short break. Had to drag the two luggages around, sometimes there is a need to carry them onto the escalator.

juju very relaxed

It will be a few minutes before the train departs, we took the time to rest our legs.

inside the skyliner

Eventually, we boarded the train, along with alot of tourists and locals. It will be another 1.5 hour ride until we reached Ueno. There was nothing much to do in the train, except to sleep, or take an occasional peek outside the windows. The skies were grey and it was pouring pretty badly. We did not know what to expect still, and we just hung close and sat tight. The train will occasionally stop at certain places, but until we are at Ueno, our holiday is far from beginning.

Unfortuntate for us, upon arrival at Ueno, we got a nasty welcome! Remember the down pour I was talking about!? After 1.5 hours, it was still on! Unable to find the correct exit out of the train station, and without the slightest clue, we were in for a 6 degrees rendevous. Me and juju stood at the exit, looking at the morning streets of Ueno. Every breath we took let off vapour, and the wind was gustling like nobody's business. It was foolish of me not to bring any winter wear. I knew of the already low temperature in Japan, but I never quite expected a rain would bring the temperature down by 10 degrees. Left without a choice, we opened our luggages and fished out our most warming attire and put them on. I asked juju to buy an umbrella from the station while I muster strength to carry the 2 big luggages one by one down a flight of stairs. It ain't easy to pull this off I tell you, especially in the cold where the frosty wind simply seeps into your shaky bones. Juju came back with a 1000Yen umbrella, the most expensive I bought in 27 years. We decided to go head on with the rain. With the umbrella, its impossible for 2 people to be taking cover under it, and at the same time tugging 2 luggages along at the same time. I did the most crazy thing, I will single handedly drag the luggages along, while juju takes cover. She will shield me if the situation allows. Did I mention I was still nursing a recently sprained ankle? That didn't matter. It was so freezingly cold that it numbed away any discomfort. For the next 45minutes or so, poor juju and me went under the rain in search of our hotel. It was supposed to be 10minutes away from the train station. If you knew where it was that is.

their bento can be very appealing

This picture was taken in a store called Lawson. Its the equivalent of the 7-11, only much better. It was quite a painful experience. The air felt thin and made us feeling out of breath without effort. Lucky for us, we found the hotel after crossing an overpass. Within some turns here and there, we found what we were looking for, New Izu Hotel(新竹). As the check in timing was 1500 hours, we left our luggage in custody with the friendly lady receptionist called Akiko and her colleague, and proceeded to find some food for our cold stomach. Conveniently, Lawson is situated right beside our small hotel, and with it comes along salvation.

beat your sakae sushi anytime

Look at all the packaged bento(便当) and onigiri(饭团)! I tell you, this is a must try at their 24hour stores. Many different flavours to choose from, all at affordable prices, around 140Yen each. Grab three and you are in for a gratifying treat! For drinks, we bought 120Yen coffee and tea from their vending machines. Vending machines litter the whole of Japan, you don't have an excuse to be thirsty or forggetting your cigs. Up till today juju is still missing their onigiri, and I could deeply feel for that. If you still think Singapore is well deserved of their name as a food paradise, humble yourself with their 24hour store onigiri. You might even feel ashamed.

draining water in preparation from fried ramen

I bought myself Japanese instant noodles, and they tasted godly. I think the japanese makes the most delicious instant noodles. Even the Thais must stand one side with their heavily ajinomoto-ed noodles. You drain off the water through a special opening, lather the springy noodles with aromatic shoryu(酱油), doused the black and yellow combination with a dash of green sencha(煎茶) seasoning, presto! You had just made yourself a bowl of Japanese style fried noodles with complete with pork slices inside!

-------to be continued.....